I used to lose my breath when I saw you
Now it just feels like I’m choking
I lost my breath when you held my hand for the first time
I’m choking now that your holding hers
I lost my breath when you asked me to dance
I’m choking watching you dance with her
I lost my breath when you told me you loved me
I choked when you texted me that you didn’t
I lost my breath
When I lost you
A smile to hide the tears I’ve cried.
My eyes forever tell the pain inside.
i begin to slowly drag myself
out of the cave of anguish
that i built for myself
isolated from civilization.
but then you message me something stupid,
and i fall for you all over again.
it burns my heart,
it cuts my soul,
but i can’t stop loving you.
and it’s mostly your fault.
My close friend is also my venom,
The simple poison disguised as love,
My very light that I always need,
But sometimes I earn for the dark,
But burn me, cut me, scar me,
The dark is something I cannot have,
My close friend is like my blade,
I always want it closer,
Sometimes too close,